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TAMING THE EGO
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APRIL – Taming the Ego
As we start a brand new Astrological year, the Sun makes its way through the fiery sign of Aries, accompanied by Venus (the planet of Love) and Chiron the wounded healer. These alignments offer us a wonderful opportunity to tame the Ego and connect with our true sense of Self.
The Ego is the vehicle with which we navigate the world and as such, is vital to the human experience. However, when we identify with being the vehicle, we create suffering and disfunction for ourselves and those around us. (We get into a car, drive a car and get out of the car, not for a minute thinking that we are the car ) And so it should be for our relationship with the ego.
The result of this separation of ‘self’ from the vehicle, is greater inner peace and contentment, and a more enjoyable and happier life.
This month we are going to explore the many different ways in which the ego presents itself, from inferiority to superiority and discover how to find our true identity, aside from what we do, from what we have and from what others think of us. This is liberating.
HOW TO FREE YOURSELF FROM EGO ARMOUR
Vanity and pride are what most of us tend to think of when we think of ego, but ego is much more than an overinflated sense of self. It can also turn up in feelings of inferiority or self-hatred, because ego is any image you have of yourself that gives you a sense of identity—and that identity derives from the things you tell yourself and the things other people have been saying about you that you’ve decided to accept as truth.
One way to think about ego is as a protective heavy shell, such as the kind some animals have, like a big beetle. This protective shell works like armor to cut you off from other people and the outside world. What I mean by shell is a sense of separation: Here’s me and there’s the rest of the universe and other people. The ego likes to emphasize the “otherness” of others.
This sense of separation is an intrinsic part of the ego. The ego loves to strengthen itself by complaining—either in thoughts or words—about other people, the situation you find yourself in, something that is happening right now but “shouldn’t be,” and even about yourself. For example, when you’re in a long line at the supermarket, your mind might start complaining how slow the checkout person is, how he should be doing this or doing that, or he failed to do anything at all—including packing the bag of the person ahead of you correctly.
When this happens, the ego has you in its grip. You don’t have thoughts; the thoughts have you—and if you want to be free, you have to understand that the voice in your head has created them and the irritation and upset you feel, is the emotional response to that voice Only in this way can you be present to the truer world around you and see the golden shade in a pound of pears on the scanner, or the delight of a child in line who begs to eat them. The trick, of course, is to work to free ourselves from this armor and from this voice that is dictating reality.
OBSERVE THE MIND
The first foundational step is to become aware of what kind of thoughts you habitually think, especially negative thoughts: irritation, anger, impatience and perhaps even some kind of sadness. You might, for example, complain about yourself, at how useless you are. If you start to hear these repetitive thoughts, then you will suddenly realize, “I’ve been thinking these same thoughts again and again almost every day without really knowing it.”
DISTINGUISH BETWEEN THE VOICE OF EGO AND THE ACTUAL SITUATION
Awareness is the beginning of becoming free of the ego, because then you realize that your thoughts—and the negative emotions they produce—are dysfunctional and unnecessary. For example, let’s go back to the supermarket line. As you stand waiting, you aren’t actually irritated because it’s taking a long time to get through to the checkout, which is the situation. You are irritated by what your mind is telling you about the situation—which is that all this waiting is bad and a waste of your time. But you could actually be enjoying that moment if you say, “This is simply what is. There’s nothing I can do about it, so why not breathe in deeply and look around and enjoy the world around me?”
LET GO OF LIMITING STORIES
Sometimes the danger is not even pessimistic thought. If, for instance, you have been let go from your job, you might so resist being negative that you say, “It’s a great thing that I lost my job!” That kind of willful optimism is not necessary. We hold on to the fairy tale of supposed happiness—that we should be happy. But this keeps you stuck where you are. Instead, try to describe only what is happening, without judgment: I do not have a job. I must look for one.
BRING IN YOUR AWARENESS
When you see the difference between your voice and the reality of the situation, that’s the beginning of awakening. This is often a moment—a flash that sizzles and disappears. Initially you still lose yourself again, and the old thoughts arise, but gradually, you gain awareness, and the dysfunctional thoughts subside. It’s a gradual transition, this bringing in of your awareness, because the ego doesn’t want to change. It doesn’t want to disappear, so it will give you plenty of reasons why you cannot be present.
LAY DOWN YOUR WEAPONS
Your challenge will be to become more aligned internally with the present moment. Fighting with your ego by will just makes it stronger. By declaring war on it, you make an enemy. A simple example: You wake up in the morning, and it’s raining and gray, and the mind says, “What a miserable day,” and this is not a pleasant thought. You likely feel some emotion: dread, disappointment, unhappiness. You suddenly realize that your judgment of what kind of day it will be is based on a mental habit, an unconscious default. That simple awareness creates space for a new thought to emerge. You can look again out the window without that preconception and just see the sky. It’s gray. There’s some sunlight filtering through the sky. There are, perhaps, raindrops falling. It’s not actually miserable at all. It has a certain beauty. Then suddenly, you’re free. You’re no longer imposing something on reality, and you’re free to enjoy what, previously, you had rejected.
DAILY AWARENESS PRACTICE – EVERY DAY THIS MONTH
DURING THE DAY
Each day this month, notice where you might:
Elevate yourself or diminish yourself in relationship to those around you.
Judge or complain about yourself, others and your current situation.
Find the need to defend yourself or retaliate against the judgements of others.
Bolster your sense of self by pleasing others.
Make purchases that strengthen your sense of identity
There is no wrong or right here – we are just becoming more aware
IN THE EVENING
Every evening, jot down any observations about the Ego vehicle you travelled in today.
Notice where your ego was diminished or bolstered .
Notice when you used presence to maintain your centeredness, in situations that would normally ignite the ego.
(Presence is kryptonite to the ego).
The aim here is not to get rid of the Ego. It’s to recognize and value your true sense of self, as separate from the Ego.
(The one who drives the car and gets out of the car at the end of the journey)
THIS MONTH’S MEDITATION
Welcome to this months meditation. Its best to do it at a similar time of day, in the same place, to get into a routine.
Please set aside some time each day to dedicate to this – if you can do it a twice a day, all the better.
CLICK THE IMAGE TO THE LEFT TO ACCESS YOUR MEDITATION
THIS MONTH’S JOURNAL
Here is your journal for the month, which you can do at your own pace. You can choose whether you’d like to print the journal out, or write them out and answer the questions in your own special journal. Its more effective to write than to type.
CLICK ON THE IMAGE BELOW TO OPEN YOUR PDF
THIS MONTH’S AFFRIMATION
Here is your Affirmation for the month. Please download this onto your phone or print it out and put it up in a prominent place. Its also a good idea to paste it or write it in your Journal. Affirmations are most effective when repeated many times a day.
PLEASE RIGHT CLICK ON THE IMAGE TO COPY
TAMING THE EGO- CREATIVE PROJECT
Only start this once you have done at least a week of Daily Awareness Practice and Journalling
This project can be spread out over a few days. You can do a quick collage or you can spend a lot of time on it. It’s up to you. There is absolutely no need for any artistic ability whatsoever. It’s the PROCESS that’s important!
All you need is:
- 3 Pieces of A4 or A3 cardboard or thick paper
- A pair of scissors, or a Stanley knife
- Some glue
- A pile of magazines (Available from Charity Shops, SPCA etc)
STEP ONE – ASPECTS OF EGO
- Look back in this month’s journal and bring your awareness to the different aspects of your ego. No judgement – just notice what you have written
- Now page quickly through the magazines. When an image, colour, word, sentence grabs your attention or creates a reaction inside you (‘good” or “bad”) , tear the whole page out and place it face down next to you. You should end up with at least 10 pages. Don’t analyse why you are choosing images or words
- When you have 10 to 20 pages, spread them out and see whether any images on the reverse side either pull or repel you. Set those aside.
- Now turn them the “right” way up and choose the pages which you intuitively connect with.
- Cut carefully around the images and words and layer them onto the paper or board
- Don’t try to analyse this, just accept what your soul has provided to you.
STEP TWO – ASPECTS OF PRESENCE
- Bring yourself into presence (you might want to do this months meditation first)
- Now look for images and words which align with who you really are- your true, Divine self.
- Cut around them and stick them onto the 3rd piece of paper.
- If you like, stick all three papers on a larger sheet, with the third one in the middle
- Once all three are complete, go through all the images on each card, one by one, starting with the words – “I am the one who……..” and write down what comes up for you. We have given you some very simple examples below.
- You can go much further if you like. Write down your findings in your journal
ASPECTS OF EGO
FINGER/MOUTH – I am the one who shouts at and points fingers at myself and others.
DOLL – I am the one who feels battered and burnt out.
ASPECTS OF PRESENCE
OWL – I am the wise observer
WOMAN – I am embracing getting older.
I am happy in my skin, despite the ticking clock.
ASPECTS OF EGO
WOMAN – I am the one who hides in the depths, closed off from my overwhelming feelings (WATER) – unable to see that there is assistance
MAN – I am the one who looks down on myself when I am emotional
NEW MATRIX VIDEOS
If you are new to Journeys of Awakening, please watch the two Teaching videos below. which go into more depth on our foundational teachings. If you have been travelling with us for a while, it might be useful to revisit them, as they have been updated.
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